The Ridiculous Idea of Never Seeing You Again
The ridiculous ideas are a decalogue of things classifiable as ridiculous because they’re inconceivable, incalculable, and unbearable. It’s inspired by Rosa Montero’s book The Ridiculous Idea of Never Seeing You Again, which addresses countless human themes like love, death, and literature’s saving force, interwoven with the diary Marie Curie wrote after her husband’s death.
“Humans defend ourselves from senseless pain by adorning it with the sensibility of beauty.”
Rosa Montero
The Ridiculous Ideas
Ridiculous because inconceivable, incalculable, and unbearable. Because they overwhelm me. Because they produce tachycardia and trembling in my voice. Because they don’t fit anywhere, not even in words.
The ten most ridiculous ideas:
- That lacking children, the most important event of my life is my dead.
- Experiencing grief so great it has no words to place upon it.
- Being an astronaut floating adrift in the vastness of outer space.
- Stepping over other women in the confused search for my place in the world.
- Not being present in the everyday, believing that real life is yet to come.
- That one day you’ll be gone and every inch of what was our world becomes unlivable.
- Not knowing in time that something is the last time. Knowing ahead of time it’s the last time.
- That time will fray the memories and transform what remains of your face in my memory into shadows.
- Not knowing how to be a woman. Ending up being nothing in order to be everything until erasing myself so as not to be seen.
- The day when you’re no longer here to tell us over and over the same stories that became the soundtrack of our life.
